date: Wednesday, March 09, 2005 @ 8:51 pm
title: School...
School's short.
Woke up on time, but di-lee da-lee took my own sweet time.
I knew someone else will be late too, but I ignored that knowledge.
I decided to take bus 51 without the prior knowledge of the change to the bus route. And landed up somewhere far away from school, approixmately 50m radius away. I was fine with it, so made up my mind to go Macs for breakfast and to do some work. Bleah!! I dun wan to be caught late and to know who was also late as well.. Not Monday Blues, more like Wedensday Loner..
I just want to have the morning to myself for awhile..
I missed the loney days where being sociable is like social suicide to me, which was a mindset that overthrown, trampled and disposed. I sort of missed God. As in, I haven't be talking to Him very much during the week, except for important matters that needed to be get done with. That relationship between us just -blank- , I dunno what happened..
Frankly speaking, I'm in love Her.. if this sound much better.
Ever since, I received Her into my life. The Revolution of Love broke inside of me. Her love just off sets all the bitterness within me, not instantly but over a period of time.
Today, during History tutorial..
Edwin Tan relieved for Ms Koh's absence.
We had a relatively fierce conversation with broken desk chairs and etc.. an inside joke for those presented. I dunno whether to judge him as a nice guy or just a hypocrite, by the things he said. However, I was slightly agreed to a certain extent on his conclusion speech before we were released:
'We need someone who is greater and more powerful than us to take care of us.'
If you were to asked me whether I'm willing to die immediately and not feel abit of regret, 5 years ago.. I will beg you to release me from all the agonies and suffering. Guillotine me then.
But now, I will beg you to length my days on earth.. even to the point of resurrecting me. I haven't seen the great multiudes turning to God and the majastic miracles that was promised to be 10-folds of the Pentacost churches..
I haven't see the lame walk and the blind see. I want to be a part of the spiritual warfare that might even need my life.. I want to be the flagbearer of the Jesus' Army. My pastor's armor bearer. My leaders' cupbearer.
My results are the fruits of hope, love and faith. I hoped for that results. God love me so much that it came to pass. I worked in the walk of faith. He honored his promise..
Sometimes I think..
why do we work so hard when if we truely put God as our primary concern?
For 'O', I didn't work as hard as my prelims..
I just asked him for which subject topics to pay more attention with and which questions to forego to do well.. I did everything by faith. I prayed. I seeked him. I asked Him and he told me.
Many people just criticized me to be arrogent, for acting smart.
Actually, I'm very stupid one..
'God strengthen those who are weak. He works thru people's weakness.'
He works his miracles thru stupid students like me, whose teachers and parents had no hope pinned on me, except for my spiritual parents who did everything they could to make sure I get a decent result. And God honored that.
I knew I made many silly mistakes for Emaths and didn't do 2 major questions for Amaths, but still can get A1 for both.. I dun believe it lor. You see.. I made a conclusion that we cannot see things thru the natural way. Things happened the supernatural ways and it will always be like that. Try to rational and you will get more confused.
If I were to tell people that I have a Guardian angel with me always, looking out for me. Saving me from all the traps and snares that might kill me, and supporting me when my walk with God is diffcult.. how many will believe? Many will just brush me off and smile that my naive thoughts on religion.
Why people keep on thinking that and treating Christianity as a religion, bounded by legalism.. being a Sunday Christian only and a normal being on the rest of the week. Sometimes, I dunno why people have this mindset that church is only on Sundays.. This is what I called religion. Bleah!!
Why can't I go to church on weekdays to spend my afternoon serving the church? This unhealthy mindset of Sunday church-ing must die!! Christianity is all about the relationship between God and man, and this is always been the case since Adam is created, since the earth starts to be filled with human being, Homo Sapien..
Simple things like..
I love to go to church because got pretty girls and handsome boys..
WHATEVER PEOPLE!! You are missing the point of attending church service.
'A single day in your courts is better than a thousand days else where.'
You need a band, so that worship will be better with better music..
HUH?? How did Adam worship God? By hitting branches in the tree trunk? NO!! He worshipped with his actions from his heart. I'm sure the only job he had then was to name the animals by his choice.
The most funniest of all..
is you do this and that, so you are a better christian than some others.
HELLOOOO!!! I doubt they even know the meaning of 'christian' lor..
It's 'being a little Christ', which is being like Jesus, strive to be like Him.
I dun think they remembered or even read about the conflict Jesus' disciples had, before Jesus was mocked at, spat upon and crucified.. the disciples quarreled among themselves on who was the greatest of all the 12 and who would most likely sit on his right-hand side... Isn't it the same situtation here?
Okie..
ZHan cool down..
How did I get to here? Sounded like rebuking..
Bleah!!
When I know some of my friends who did better than me for prelims, but didn't for 'O'.. and they complain and mutter against God for not blessing them.
I want to tell him my coke-cola formula of E Success..
'Seek first His Kingdom and His Righteoueness and all will be added to you.' Mat 6:33 NKJV
All the formulas to successful B-G Relationship, marriage, business, studies and everything are in this book that had countless critics since it was offically published - E BiblE.
'Those who read it, will find wisdom and understanding.'
Of course..
There are some who just read the verse and assume..
' Seek first His Kingdom...' as in 'Seek ONLY first His Kingdom...'
Den things dun go well.
DUH!!! One more verse to add on..
'You reap and you sow.'
BINGO? So to all those who are faint-hearted and have read this BOOMING revelation, to pin your hopes on God once more and stay in tune.. for He's going to do great stuff soon. Yeeha!!
By the way..
I met Jazz today.
Zi Yi's favorite.. Ha!
I also kind of like her too.. >.<
I brought Mac breakfast for Class today..
so sinful of me.. Bleah!!
Just like the great old days when I had to takeaway chicken rice from cedar market for Scout activities.. E Great committment to accomplish - slacking while the rest suffer.. Muhahaha..
I have like 7 tea on my hands.. so like deliveryman! Bleah!!
Skipped tutorials and attend lectures and PE only..
Met BERrr and gang in canteen.. they left soon later.
Met Lau Po and her crashed SRJC gang..
Met a few Aura people. Many have withdrawn..
1A04 was still in acceptablly size.. Chun Keat's happier today. -hint hint-
Went Hougang Mall after school.
Zi Yi wanted to buy dog stuff.. the hard bone thingy for her to chew. Not Zi Yi lar..
Eat at the foodcourt upstairs den went straight to Zi Yi's relative's place @ puggol.
And I found out that many of them have dogs or had them.. ha!
Poor Xian Jun's bottle.. ha! defiled by Jazz!
Okie.. time to clean up the junks in my room..
most likely to clear my clothes..
For once, I dunno how to end my blog..
er... er... BYE! :)
